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[Oct. 18th, 2008|02:51 pm] |
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tomorrow,
i'm going back to the place where it all first started.
sure i have my doubts about it, but looking at the pictures, i really miss them.
its been long, i wonder how's everybody?
life-long friends?
probably.
it makes me all tingly just thinking about it.
for the first in a long time,i feel kind of happy about going back to the house of god.
but then again,god, CHEM IS ON MONDAY.
I FEEL KIND OF WEIRD. ITS LIKE I'M WORRIED BUT I'M NOT SCARED?
there's a 2/10 possibility i may do ok if i study but can i settle down to study?!?!!?!?
i feel kind of lazy + tired now,i just want to rest my bum on my bed,
ah well,its my fault anyway,no one told me to go home at 1 ):
sometimes i wonder,why do i like to do stupid things before major exams.
WAHHHHHHH OK OUT OF HERE.
BYEXO. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2008|01:34 pm] |
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i can't believe you,
mofo. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2008|12:34 am] |
THIS IS MICHELLE WEE.
hahaha,im using amanda account.hehehehehe((: |
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[Oct. 25th, 2007|01:32 am] |
Milo Ventimiglia
milo is hot stuff! i can't believe he has such a dorky name though, like who names their kid MILO!?
if i had a son and i named him milo,and if he died,people who would want to put the word 'die' in a nicer word would go,I'M SO SORRY MILO EXPIRED.
ok i am eating brownies from the brownie factory,its really nice,better than donuts or whatever you can think of,i like white choco too.
btw,we had a sort of meaningless sex talk for the whole day,ABORTION IS CRUEL,don't sin.
on the other hand,i hope underaged stupid kids contract STD when they have sex,everyone should abstain. |
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[Sep. 18th, 2007|10:00 pm] |
This journal's purpose is to view my friends locked posts,i'm not updating it.
kthxbye. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2007|12:48 am] |
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Hi,i'm finally 15 today. |
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[Apr. 9th, 2007|11:15 pm] |
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hello hello,i've got my xanga already.no wait i got it a long time ago. HAHAHAHAH.
i just begin using it today. today's update is there.
www.xanga.com/pandabath
don't ask me why so weird,its just the way i am. HAAHAHAH
ahah,no ! actually cos i was about to take a bath. and people started calling me panda on msn.
so pandabath.so random i know. butttt anyway.
byebyebyebyebye LIVEJOURNAL.
i'm sorry for using you for such a short period of time.
eh no i'm not abandoning you,i will come back to you lj,don't worry (:
i will come back when the time is right which is soon (: |
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[Apr. 8th, 2007|11:57 pm] |
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suddenly i feel so goood inside. i'm all nice to anabelle.
see,she's even my desktop picture!(: i think its god,i love him (:
i know that was random,but well,god does everything good for me.
i feel so holy,no idea why.
went for easter sunday mass,ohgod. it was 1.5 hrs cos apparently this father who's not from our parish was conducting it and it wasn't even interesting. EVERYBODY was doizing off. ohmannnnn. and today i earned 15 bucks! last night i was happy cos suddenly you messaged me.kinda surprising actually,but it made me happy. (: and dad made me listen to : rich dad,poor dad guide to investing.
not bad,maybe i'll be the next biggest export of singapore. or maybe i could be the pm and i'll close half of RI.
hah! dream on amanda.but it doesn't hurt to dream.
may's coming,its going to be a year. next friday's is in 11 days time. i'm excited.
ok,byebye! the world is coming to an end anyway,by 2050,we'll have no water to drink! and thanks henry for your INSPIRATION. :D
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TERENCE WONG FEI YANG! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
and to whoever tagged: only winners read self help books.
i wanna thank you.thank you very much (:
cos it was a encouragement i guess.
and for calling me a winner.
i love you whoever you are :D |
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[Apr. 7th, 2007|09:20 pm] |
i wanted to have a fucking cold war with dad,but i couldn't.
so i'm going to rant HERE.
and i seriously envy this girl.
she's damn lucky.
good family,good life,good friends.
and she had a blast on her b'day.
well,its like i'm really hoping everyone would do that for me too.
the stupid self help books sucks. i hate the book.
i was annoyed with it yesterday. i finished it both.
and i hate both of the books.
forgive your parents all,what stupid shit.
like they didn't think what kind of stupid things parents do too.
annoying fuck shit.
yeah i am a selfish brat, i have a fucking comfortable life.
but that doesn't give you the fucking right to throw stuff at me.
and it doesn't give you the right to call me names and it certainly doesn't
give you the right to tell me today is going to be the start of my nightmare.
i want to drag you to a counsellor and get them to curb your fucking anger.
ok,bye. i am a selfish person who doesn't give a fuck about her family. deal with it.
cos i have my life too. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2007|01:22 pm] |
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just got back from chomp chomp. the chilli made me cry like crap. i swear i was tearing all the way.
today in kinokuniya,daddy threw me a book called "being a happy teen"
and he bought me 2 books: being a happy teen and another called follow your heart.
and just 2 nights ago he called me emo.
and these 2 self helps books are super super interesting. and i saw more self help books for teens.
i'm going to get more of those. yes,i know,only losers read self help books.
i'm suchaaaaa loser,but i don't care.
i hate the internet,the government should ban it.
why am i such a weird kid anyway.
oh i think some teachers are nice. on wed,i got praised by ms r.. hahaha.
and on thurs,i got praised again by mrs l! eh,its like once in a reallly blue moon i get praised.
i'm a kid with a bad reputation with the teachers. what cannn i do?
ok,so some stuff were misunderstood. i love you though. (: like really love you. (:
MELVIN:
OIIIIIIIII BIRTHDAY BOY! :D
HAPPY 15TH!
I LOVE YOU LAH ! AND THANKS FOR ALL THOSE BIBLE VERSES AND CHEER UP MSGS AND YOUR SUPER RANDOM CONCERN!
YOUR MY LOVE MAN! :DDDDDD
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[Apr. 3rd, 2007|02:34 am] |
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i was going to curse and swear at L.C but thanks daryl for telling me to explode on you and offering to whack that asswipe. school soon and i'm still on geog. like woah.
nvm. and will update on what happens later in school later in the night.
till now,
adios.
(edit)
managed to sleep at 5:30 am,woke up at 6:30am for school. so pro,i know.i slept for 1 hr only.school was boring. i got scolding by KHL cos apparently i didn't hear her call my name and said: I DID GIVE YOU MY MC OK. I HANDED IT IN.
then she scolded me infront of everybody,like wtf and i rolled my fking eyes and said sorry. and a ong caught me for my blouse and tie. ok she was nice though. she didn't scold me when i thought she was going to.geog was helllllla boring.but i was talking to sharleen bout like stuff going on.at least that wasn't boring.and the project i only slept 1 hr for is only due next week,so WTF ok.
ndp was fking stuffy and sticky. i don't know why i bother to go.its so stupid.oh i go for buddy,but apparently she doesn't really seem to care. does she? then was slacking with yixuan,talking abt really random stuff and we went walking ard together.pfft,bored ok.
after that compassed with ferlycia,michelle,funghua. took 163 with ferlycia and mich. and then alighted with mich at her bus stop and i missed 2 of my buses so we ended up talking at the stop for 1 solid hr. i love her (: and now i know that bloody WHS is a flirt. hahah,thanks alot man ferlycia and michelle. gramps-ed. omg,so tiredd and my tuition teacher decided not to wait for me and went back. ahahah,which means no tuition! :D
ohoh,today had chinese test.out of 50marks ,i did 3qns. then the lin laoshi sat beside me and started talking to me.and she told me to do my paper again and i pull my face and say : y'know lao shi,its really difficult.
than she wanted me to sit in front for lessons. then i said don't want.
then she wanted me to go to xie laoshi's class i said xie laoshi's fierce.
so she recommended that i go to WHS for tuition.
i was like: uhh, laoshi,ta de chinese isn't good either.
and she went: uhh,you sure anot(in chinese),i was like: DAMN SURE.
ahahah! but if i was actually cheeky at that point of time,my reply would have been: ok set lah!ni gei wo ta de number!
HAHA,insideeeee joke though.maybe jillian would understand. HAHAHAH.
that's all. byeeee!
its too risky to rely on you.maybe she's right,you're fake at times.
and perhaps i can't be able to judge you cos i don't have the rights too,i can judge our friendship. and the way its going,i better keep my distance just in case i get abandoned. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2007|09:38 pm] |
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nicole khooooooo,i need help with xanga.
and migraine sucked a hell lot more than my sore throat and bloody nose tap. couldn't even walked properly.
anyway i slept like through the whole day, tiredddd like crap. and i still can sleep.
doing geog powerpoints for presentation tmr,damn tiring.
anyway, 1 @M SHO K3WI_!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that was damn random. ok cara was so funny cos she told me about the carissa chee thing.
omg,that was damn funny.
and jillian told me she saw the love of my life YET AGAIN!
its fate lah,i had a feeling that my friends/i would see today and they did!
and thanks for helping the annoying me cepheus.even though you still couldn't help.
hahahahaahah,i hate mac,go change your skin back to windows.i am annoyed with my mac.
and michael is sleeping.so like nobody i know can help me cos everybody else uses WINDOWS!!!!!!!!
is there anyway i can do an exchange?! how now?!
i'm so exasperated! gahhhh,i need help!
ok that's it,besides the fact that i ate curry puff for lunch and curry chicken for dinner today which was hella shoik!
sometimes,i feel good for the fact that my migraine makes me wanna slash my head and die and mummy makes the effort to let me eat good food. i'm a foodie you know,i love food.food is great even though it makes us fat.
BYE BYE! i'm still irritated/infuriated with my mac. yuck. |
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[Apr. 1st, 2007|11:59 am] |
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am damn shagged now. church was tiring,was sleeping through mass. maybe its because of piano tuition today. so goddamn early.
wanted to skip,but rmbed my promise to buddy to not skip school. plus _'s coming back for last day tmr. must go. i only have 2 reasons to go to school and a hell lot to NOT go to school. but nvm,i shall go.
pranked like 5 people. tried covering mike's eyes and say GUESS WHO,but i was trying to find his eyes and ended up laughing,how dumb.
and leonard's was the funniest.
amanda: i was thinking yesterday and i was wondering... ok,this is embarrassing but i was wondering... like... could we get together?
leonard: (gives me the shock look for 30 secs) actually i don't mind getting together.
amanda: (bursts out laughing like crazy)
hahaha,he fell for it lah. aahah. and paula believed the ambrose thing. cos i messaged grace and grace save my number as ambrose so when i messaged,instead of my name,ambrose name appears. so we showed paula the message and everything and she really believed. damn funny. hahaah, went to club to eat. was damn hungry.
yesterday was shopping. without anabelle. so there was peace like everywhere.and ferlycia and michelle told me abt __! like wth. if i wasn't too lazy to get out of the house,i would have seen too! shizzz. nvm,its fate and luck lah.talked to jill till 4am. and played with luke till 4 too.
p.s sorry chinhao.
I'm tired. really tired.
turning emo. friendships.
they're confusing.
just when i thought that i was so out of crushing,
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[Mar. 30th, 2007|11:59 pm] |
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when IT scolded the class today,teared abit. cos what she said struck me. nobody in this world has the right to judge anyone. we go to school not to break people. and when we tear a paper bit by bit,we tear the whole paper in the end.
true true,makes a hell lot of sense.like makes me reflect on myself.
cca was HELLA FUNNY! FC kept picking on me and jill. say what we can't be bothered and all,like wth. stupid woman. we contributed ok! and me and jillian drew this:
hahaha,how adorable! HAHAHAAHAAAHHA!
JUSTICE LEAGUE,SO COOL I KNOW. :D
dental today,nice dentist.today was splendid. wu's last day too.blog more tmr. meanwhile extracts from people's blog who are talking about me!me!me!
charlene:
AMANDA NICOLE HO JUST TOLD ME THE FUNNIEST THING I'VE HEARD TODAY
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
ITS DAMN FUNNY
I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING
jillian:
amanda and I got nagged by @$I(@I(#I(#I5i. urgh. damn annoying. Something about how we can't be bothered about those stuff and we didn't put in effort and what not.
anyway,amanda and I drew this during cca and we couldn't stop laughing.
joey:
went for dentist at the 2nd period of physics. was like talking crap in the dentist bus with karin, melissa and amanda. hahs. super super nice. aircon room man.
charmaine:
I LOVE YOU,SEXY AMANDA HO.
how sincrere is thattt!
HAHAH,i can't be bothered to type what wonderful things happened. so this extracts are brief details of today.(: everybody says i like to go against the teachers. haaha,wah lau eh,i'm not so much of a rebel ok! haha!
and ___ messaged me in friendster. so i'm a cool kid! haha. (:
and ben is at my house now bored to death cos he's seperated from his war craft. pfft,ahah
oh and i COUNSELLED l.c,how does that sound? (:
and l.c asked me out!
STUFF
GLORIA:
hey sweets,cheer up. (: i'm here for you,what's there to worry when i'm here? if you have to really go through all those,i'll go through it with you,i promise ok, meanwhile don't worry. just let things flow cos i'm here for you darl. i wanna see you put your chin up and smile. (:
FERLYCIA:
eh yeo! i love you lah! don't be emo emo ok. like i said,tell me what you want to say,i won't rant. put your chin up and smile darl. the whole world cares for you,alot. (:
MEL LIM:
you cheer up ok,sorry about not being able to go out today. like sorry. and stop being a emo kiddo. you have friends like me. rmb,i accompany you during recess when you feel lonely instead of going with my other friends? i love you,the whole world does,you're not lonely.
CHARMAINE:
eh sexxyy tan! i love you lah dey! congrats on your achievements for sports day, woohoo.YOU DA BABE! :D
OTHERS:
& to other people who are too long to mention,i love you for making my day today! you guys da bomb! <3 |
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[Mar. 29th, 2007|11:59 am] |
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haha,I LOVE LOVE LOVE TODAY!
i'm going to blog in detail! :D:D:D
maths was so proud of myself :D did my work! ahahah,i bet ms ling was happy! haahah! and and i know how to do my graphs you know!!
and then chem was ok,i did my work too! hahahah,so proud again!! hahaha,but chem was boringggggg cos ms cteee go her dental appt.
LIT IS DA BOMB! hahah, charlene's lit grp also didn't prepare script and when 3d presented theirs,we were like: OMG,THEY GOT SCRIPT. HAHAA.
the lit presentation was hella funny lah! damn funny! me and melissa went to present! haha,mrs low laughed. isn't that good,cos she didn't enjoy 3d's one as much as ours. 3 FAITH DA BOMB! <3 then we had a good time presenting and we're liek hoping we get good marks for presentation. haahah,HOPE. and then me,mel ho,charlene had a hella fun time again! i laughed till i cried for 20 minutes ok! like we were: GOT GANG,COME LAH,YOU PISS OFF ME MAN,I GO BRING MY GANG OUTSIDE SCHOOL.YOU DON'T KAUPEI ME YOU UNDERSTAND.hahaah,you won't get the joke,hahaah! ok,we're so funnnnnnnnny! so FUN LAH!
then chinese, ting xie sucked a hell lot. omg. but that lao shi was nice enough to show us words and nic koh helped me! ahah thanks girl :D
then __ stood at my desk! i was melting! like omg,MELTINGGG! and ___ smiled at me! i smiled back! ahhaah:D my heart was beating hella fast!
recess was spent doing SS. (:
CD was about SEXUALITY. hahah,that was funny too with melissa ho! :D and mavis and me have a date at HOTEL 81 cos i persuaded her to have sex with me. haha,that stupid qns they gave us. tsk! and GINA IS MY NEW LOVER! :D cos lijie rejected my love! ): haha.and then ss she changed out seating positions. like not much of a change for me manxzzzz,but that poor charlene,shit lah,i got seperated from budddy! then after that had english, RED TART'S GAMES WERE BORING! LIKE WE WERE BORED TO DEATH. hahaha,and and bio was ok,. but everytime cherry shoots me a qns,i get a shock and i clam up and i can't answer. like omg! and those qns i can ans,she doesn't ask me. what is this man! but at least that shows i should clear my doubts when she teaches so i can ans her qnsss!
and after school was so fun too! hung out with ferlycia and co. omg,we had such a fun time lah! and they taught us the KAUPEI KAUBU RAP! AHAHAHAHAH! OMG! then dhurggha's so cute! ahah,so funny again! todays like the AH LIAN HOKKIEN DAY. HAHAHAHAH!
and and ctee, like today 3 of them came! like omg ok! :D:D:D:D:D
homed with val,char,ctee. hella funny again! and i hope that pervertic asshole eyes rots. like wtf,you don't have to look at people's undies
you son of a bitch. ok,so i'm happy. chinese tuition was ok,with my teacher WHINING about how horrible my chinese is. bahhh.
and new maid came again! she's so oldddddddddddddddddddddd. hahaha.
and and BEAT THIS,today i've got 7 TESTIMONIALS. hahaha,SEVEN! :D ok,TODAY'S DA BOMB! :D
and tmr's __ last day. hahaha,ferlycia and michelle and fung hua shouldddd know. (:
BYEEEEEE! TODAY'S DA BOMB! TOTALLY! :D |
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[Mar. 28th, 2007|11:47 pm] |
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today was ughh. i was so sick,i almost died.
only after school the blocked nose wasn't as bad,but everybody said i had a stuffffy blocked voice which made me sound werid. shizzz.
and we celebrated the jan,feb,mar babies birthday today. did memory box with sharleen and charlene. charlene's so sweet she came to help. (:
me and sharleen did everything ok, everything.
and rachel is damn right,i think my mind's abit screwed that's why.
oh yeah,the video today during RE,quite enlightening.
i'm going to forgive her,really. like no matter what she did to me in sec 1,i should forgive her. its only right.
and that's all.
byebye,my sore throat and blocked nose succcccck.
and i've got no appetite. |
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[Mar. 27th, 2007|10:11 pm] |
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today is a happy day. (:
i love today.
lessons were fine. then i got sick.whs wanted to give me a intensive course on vulgarities. hahah. too bad man! then uhh geog was ok. did my test,was fooling ard when i did my test.haha,i know i'm weird. then after that i went ard covering people's eyes. hahahaha,so fun!
ndp was ok today.like just sit and slack. now i finally recognise t * ***. hahaah then i saw despo girl going there to keep staring at him, like omg.
i sound so bimbo. ahaha,but its true. even suhan says so! haha,i love suhan lah,she's so cute. and i hope that sec 2 melissa gets well. (:
and and we all played truth and dare. omg,the dares were stupid ok! like so embarrassing. and yup,i think the teachers couldn't stand us.
ahahah.
i love jan and charlene. they make me happy. (: today during break,me and charlene were relieving our childhood days. ahha,right dear!
and our rhyme. haha. (:
hahah,and jan and our convo super funny.
here it goes :
And we'll dance the night away says: (10:18:45 PM)
BUT EVEN BEFORE RAMA LIKES YOU HE SHOULD LOOK INTIO THE MIRROR
And we'll dance the night away says: (10:18:48 PM)
AND THINK
And we'll dance the night away says: (10:19:46 PM)
"OH GOSH, THERE'S WHS AND DIMPLE FACE, HOW AM I GOING TO WIN AMANDA'S FAIR MAIDEN HEART?"
pause...
(RAMA FAINTS)
bye. :D
p.s ANTHONY KONG IS SO DEAD. HAHAHAH! DON'T WORRY PAULA. SUNDAY HE DIE. (: |
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[Mar. 26th, 2007|11:43 pm] |
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today i gave advice to melissa. i reckon it was good advice. so yeah,let go let go. i mean its difficult to let go,i know. i mean like you have to know she's not going to be your true friend,so why go bother to care. care about yourself. going to that,i'm asking myself why can't i try to change others for a change? i've been changing myself until i don't even know my own identity.all along i've been thinking my identity was being a bad bitch. but then again,i just realised,actually everyone's nice. no one's a bitch and we shouldn't condemn someone because of their flaws. so i am actually not bitch. so i asked myself what kind of identity do i have then if i'm not a bitch? i don't know either. i've yet to find myself .i am not who i truly am infront of everyone else.cos i'm trying to change myself to how people perceive me to be.
at times like these,you have to be here for me. its so confusing on how the world works.
no i'm not in love. i've gotten over who i once loved. and its just that i'm annoyed at the way i'm doing things. and friendships are being judged now. we shouldn't be so judgmental.
for faith i do not have.
for things i do not believe.
ps: rtts,if you guys thought the post i made and then later edited saying about feeling left out among 7 people,it doesn't refer to you guys at all ok.if you wanna know,ask me in school.
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[Mar. 25th, 2007|06:27 pm] |
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(EDITED)
i was locked out of the house because i forgot my keys.
its like the 3rd time already?
so yeah,whatever to me. i think too much.
cat class was ok today. saw dimple face.dimple face looked pale today.
dinner with the customers again later. gah.
cheer up melissa! (:
you don't have to vent your anger on me.
i'm sorry that no matter how important you are to me,
i still won't allow you to vent your anger on me.
cos its not right.its not right at all.
what kind of a boy are you anyway?
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